Pregnant Mind

First of all- forgive me if my grammar and spelling are in chaos

Pregnant Mind. Have you guys out there been in my positions? Misfortune and desperate... What i've planned and done seems to be blocked by this thing- 'bad luck'. One years planning destroyed in one days, two year struggling destroyed in two day...

I sit in my rooms, deeply thinking what i've done of deserve to have this luck. In these five years are the worst part of my life where everything turn EXACTLY opposed what i expect to happen. Is destiny choosing me by mistake? Or a virus has ruined the destiny programming system and accidentally pick up my name?

The answer. The pregnant mind works well. It created a negative thinking and 'aura' to make me depressed. When my mind in that mode, I've forgot one thing,-'GOD'. GOD created me, GOD make me a perfect man not a crippled man! Am i thankful to HIM for what HE gave me?! No, i'm not.

GOD gave me a test what i called a 'bad luck' just to remind me about HIS existence. So i sit again in my rooms, crying for all the thing and sins i've done. GOD, thank you for your care in not letting me drowned in my own world! From now on i will try to remember YOU in all my time i'm alive because this life were lending to me by YOU...